Sunglass Eyes

The eyes say all that's in your mind.

~ Put on your sunglasses. ~

Thick white sunglasses cover her green eyes.

You aren't who you say you are.

And she's wearing a whole other disguise,

Hidden far beneath that you'd never recognize.

Oh so lovely, her small talk on the surface.

You think she's hanging on your thread.

But she's got quite a different purpose,

A strategic plan calculated inside her head.

Of course, you think you're making all the moves.

You think she's playing the game you made.

But you're playing by all her rules,

Just another pawn with a name.

You stare deep into her sunglass eyes.

You think you've found your advantage.

But she knows she's your kryptonite,

More than you could ever manage.

You're hiding something down low.

You think it will help you win this game.

But she's got a bigger secret and she knows

All the moves you'll ever make.

Here at this table, now it all seems so sweet.

You almost believe all your lies.

But she can see through all your deceit,

That's why thick white sunglasses cover her green eyes.

Tables

You have the same thing on your minds, but you'll both never know.

~ Pick up the phone. ~

I watch the cars leave the driveways.

They speed away towards lives you'll never know.

You hear the rain on your window,

Drops so delicate, like the edges of my dress now frayed.

You go downstairs to a stale cup of coffee.

I stare at my bowl, like it holds some kind of warning.

My eyes on inked words, it's just another morning.

You turn your head to my chair, but I'm not there.

You have the taste of liquor in your mouth.

I have the taste of words I said.

We sit at our tables thinking about things we regret.

Only one day, but feels like forever now.

A ring is taunting you from the other room.

A tan line is taunting me on my left ring finger.

The ghosts of our words unsaid still linger,

Thick like humidity from a storm in the afternoon.

We're at different tables in scattered places,

But we sit together on opposite sides.

We sit here and contemplate changing our minds.

It can't be over. We've left far too many traces. 

I reach for the phone.

You put it down.

The rain pours outside.

Is it all over now?

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Satisfaction

Nothing is ever as it seems, until you close your eyes.

~ Open your mind. ~

Sitting in a dark cold room this time again,

Living life like it’s gone off the 

edge.

Lonely minds make wandering eyes.

There’s only so long to play pretend.

The door is shut but it’s still o p e n,

Just look at light in another focus.

Tainted sighs make pretty lies.

They’re too naive to even notice.

Step it up now, won’t have too long,

But don’t ever believe it could be wrong,

Rule breakers make heart takers.

At least the loneliness is gone.

Don’t come too near in fear,

Someone may see it far too CLEAR.

Risk takers make love fakers.

As long as it looks sincere.

Go now and find another distraction,

But remember this forbidden attraction.

Nosey others break crossed lovers.
The day we finally found satisfaction.

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Porcelain Doll

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Life of The Porcelain Doll

 I wrote this as a lyrical poem back in middle school, and it inspired the creation of an entire world.

~ Where it all began. ~

I'm drowning in my sorrows.

I suffocate in my own air.

I fear for every tomorrow,

Bows in my synthetic hair.

See my pain through glass eyes.

No one sees that I'm there.

I've become a slave to my own devise.

It pours out from under what I wear.

My skin is milky white and cold.

Under the weight, my own legs fold.

I'm dressed up in cream colored chains.

Don't let it fool you, it's easily stained.

I'm just a porcelain doll.

Fall on the floor, I shatter to pieces.

Please pick up my heart, promise to keep it.

Glue me back together 

Forever, I break so easily.

I have a voice. Do what you want with me.

To all, I'm just a porcelain doll.

I'm falling backwards, down

On the shelf too long a while.

It hurts when I hit ground,

Sharp edges can't be filed.

Smile's painted on my face. 

But I have no reason to smile.

I can't show all my pain.

I'm older now than my miles.

My skin is milky white and cold.

Under the weight, my own legs fold.

I'm dressed up in cream colored chains.

Don't let it fool you, it's easily stained.

I'm just a porcelain doll.

Fall on the floor, I shatter to pieces.

Please pick up my heart, promise to keep it.

Glue me back together 

Forever, I break so easily.

I have a voice. Do what you want with me.

To all, I'm just a porcelain doll.

I don't need a dollhouse. I don't like these walls.

I think that I'm old enough to know how to crawl.

I can't live in a carriage for the rest of my life.

You ask me to stay, but I'm willing to fight.

I'm not so fragile. I'm not made of porcelain. 

Its time that you see that I'm just human.

I'm just a porcelain doll.

Fall on the floor, I shatter to pieces.

Please pick up my heart, promise to keep it.

Glue me back together

Forever, I break so easily.

I have a voice. Do what you want with me.

To all, I'm just a porcelain doll.

I'm just a porcelain doll.

Porcelain doll.

I'm just a porcelain doll.

Porcelain doll.

I'm just a porcelain doll.