Black Out

The light we need has always been over head, but we're blinded by an imitation. 

~ Look at the stars. ~  

We spent our time in the shadows of dimmed street lights. 

Everything seemed perfect there, only for a moment. 

An endless cycle, more than once we said goodbye,

But we never let go of a subconscious one last hope.

We met each other in damaged dreams many times,

In big houses full of taunting, opinionated people.

Were we fortunate both our times never seem to align?

We still tried to meet under the dimmed street lights once in a while. 

Sometimes people are lucky that light bulbs burn out -

That's the funny thing about dimmed street lights.

We didn't know the difference between black and brown outs until now,

Until there was just one remedy to those haunting lights.

Finally, I can see the stars outside my wake-less dreams. 

They're brighter and better than I thought possible. 

I broke the curse of that incessant need

To walk blindly on the tedious path for so long. 

I can't find my way back to those dimmed street lights. 

Not anymore, not even in my wildest dreams.

All those memories quickly blur in the back of my mind

Because today I finally found my remedy.

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Waiting

We're all waiting for something to make a change in our lives. 

~ When you least expect it. ~ 

The car, the driveway.

The memories, deciding.

That room, this couch.

That shirt, a way out.

The park in the moon light.

The sound of sweet lies.

Those promises again.

Those promises broken.

She was waiting for a sunny day

in a world with only rain.

The door, an entry.

The words, false serenity.

That hat, this memory.

That phrase, like candy.

The house in emptiness.

The mind's deadliness.

Those words so sweet.

Those words still plead.

She thought it was something she needed,

had no other reason.

The magic, the message.

The fate, protective.

That time, this first.

That sign, full of nerves.

The rest's irrelevance.

This one's resonance.

Those words so true.

Those doubts renewed.

There's so much she didn't know,

until she finally let go.

The food, the conversation.

The mood, true salvation.

That day, this smile.

That change, something final.

The past is the past.

The future to last.

Those eyes never lie.

Those eyes all mine.

She knows now what it means

to really have something.

She has forgotten now 

what it was like, somehow.

She's been completely renewed

to see the truth.

She is what she's been waiting for,

all she's been hoping for.

Realms

We make our own paths. 

~ One day, today will meet yesterday. ~

She was traveling through different realms, 

Trying to find a place where she could reign. 

She decided it was time to crown herself,

To finally become the ruler of her own place.

Nothing before has really ever made sense 

In all the different realms she has travelled.

She's fought her way at her own expense,

Coming out finding even more battles.

But one day she will sit on her own throne. 

She will finally be the ruler of her own kind.

One day she make it out of this to atone

For all the ailments that had once ruled her mind.

There's a place somewhere where she can be 

All that she has ever wanted to.

This is a place for only privileged eyes to see.

A place where anyone can awake renewed.

Only the ones who have shared a mind like hers

Will ever be invited into her kingdom.

They've caught madness, but found the cure,

Still holding on to faded times that can't be undone.

She'll sit there on her gorgeous thrown.

Oh, what plans she has for a change.

She'll change the only life she's ever known.

She just has to find her realm some day. 

She's been searching so she can save you,

And all the you you will ever be.

One day your past will be forgiven and renewed.

She knows she just needs to find the sanctuary.

The steps she took brought you here over time,

Like she's been setting up a stage.

You've been walking on her path to find

That she was following you the whole way.   

Now you sit here looking down from her throne,

A solid crown firmly placed on your heads.

She looks up from the past you chose on you own.

Now you're changing the life she's lead.

Castle

Sometimes all we need is a place to feel at ease.

~ Let it live forever in our memories. ~

Five in the morning.

I couldn't sleep last night,

But then I turn around to see your eyes.

I've been learning

How to leave my past behind,

But now only thoughts of you are in my mind.

Pure white sheets.

My ghosts are still haunting.

You place your arm safely around me.

I've been healing

From the ailments in my past.

You embrace me, making it all worth it at last.

Sun in the window.

I thought darkness was a way to live.

Finally, you're the ray of hope shining in.

I've been dreaming

For those fairytales to come true.

Finally, the person I've been dreaming of is you.

Our own castle.

This was worth the wait.

I finally found the place where I feel safe.

I've been searching

For a way out of my dissatisfaction.

Now I've found someone I never imagined.

Our own sanctuary.

Nothing can touch us

In here because it's built on love.

Now I'm happy.

I know that as I wake by your side.

You can't take your morning eyes off of mine.

In our own castle,

The rest of the world fades away.

There's nothing else we need but one more day.

Stale Thoughts and Tainted Minds

Things happen when you least expect them to. 

~ Stop thinking. ~

Stale thoughts, tainted minds. 

Memories renewed. 

Eyes wide, change of times. 

A new point of view. 

From where we start this,

How is this possible?

From all that has been,

How could this be?

Cotton tops, button up shirts.

A breath of fresh air.

Park benches, fireworks.

Stories we share.

Sweatshirts, pretty dresses.

On the fancy side.

Red napkins, gentle senses.

Smiles in our eyes.

My eyes gaze up,

Suddenly, I turn away.

Maybe this is luck.

Suddenly, I'm not afraid.

Lipstick, coffee cups.

Fancy four wheel rides.

First kiss, new trusts.

Feeling a different high.

Sweet words, gentle whispers.

A new way to listen.

Cold nights, warm blankets.

The past is forgiven.

This is very new.

I don't know what I'm doing.

This is very true.

I don't want it to end.

New thoughts, dirty glasses.

A tale of what's to be.

New dreams, jean jackets.

You are all I can see.

We've never felt this way before.

But I'm letting you in now

We've never wanted so much more,

But I want you now.

Crystal Heart

Sometimes fate finds you when you least expect it.

~ Be patient. ~

Your voice is still clear in my mind.

I still feel your arms holding me close.

We said goodnight quite some while ago,

But you're stuck in my mind like a song I know. 

I hold my breath until I see you again.

You replay the last recording in your mind.

Minutes suddenly become millenniums,

And our thoughts ache more with time.

We wake up and fall asleep again.

A crystal heart hangs from a chain.

We find each other in our dreams.

Pictures add up to sums in frames.

Finally, I see your face and it lights up,

As though you're meeting a queen.

You hold me even closer,

As if we were apart for an eternity.

We walk in the crowded city,

Just two people part of an entire sea,

But we're the only ones who matter.

We're the only ones we see.

You see me shiver in the outside air 

And wrap one arm around me.

Like two pieces in a puzzle,

Our fingers intertwine so perfectly.

Your eyes are locked onto mine.

My head finds home on your chest.

We've found our fantasies in each other.

Our active minds can finally rest.

Magnets

It's time to follow the energy that has been pulling you.

~ Trust fate. ~

Our lives are two attracting magnets

that fate decided to cling together.

In a realm filled with static,

we never thought it could get better.

But it needed to.

There's a pull of attraction, 

a force we can feel so strong.

It's some sort of chemical reaction

driving us to pursue on. 

Like it wanted us to.

We're both from mines of iron

where we've been cut and bruised,

working hard to impress liars,

who would only leave us feeling used.

But we had to.

Finally we saw a spark,

a small flame igniting in the sky.

The thought was very far,

but we chased it like a high.

Cause we needed to.

It's daunting, but electric, 

a feeling we've never felt in our lives.

It's pulling us, so magnetic,

so we know we have finally arrived.

Where we needed to.

I think it's more than just attraction,

like some act of a higher plan, 

that brought us to compassion,

something only we can understand.

And we needed to.

It's incredible what fate produced,

like two magnets meant to be.

Now it's clear I saved you

because you're the one who saved me.

And I needed it.