Isn't this what you wanted?
~ It's never what you thought it would be. ~
I'm not really sure just happened.
I can't speak about it because no one else is talking.
What if I'm wrong? What if I it's what I wanted?
Then, why does it feel so lethal and so haunting?
I don't know what to think anymore.
You were getting comfortable inside my mind.
I listened with such obedience.
I was swayed far too easily time and time.
But is it what I really wanted?
No, I remember my voice grasping firmly on the word.
As I sat there repeating it,
You were out for yourself without giving me any concern.
I did this to myself, that's what you told me.
But I trusted you and you used that to your advantage.
I thought I knew you and I trusted you.
But you saw me as an opportunity to further your antics.
I'm seeing flashes of those times.
I didn't quite understand what happened then.
Finally, I gave in and admitted to someone.
And the meaning was brought to my attention.
Well I guess you finally got what you wanted.
Just another in your long list of conquests.
Somehow I know I had it easier than them.
So, why is my mind forever in a state of detest?
They tell me to get over it and move on.
Why do the flashes in my mind still taunt me?
It's in the past, I try to tell myself.
But when I think I'm happy, those times still haunt me.
You're truly the master of deception.
You think we're all pawns in your game.
I'm glad I was strong enough to break free.
The unstable thoughts in your mind are truly to blame.
I would speak up,
But no one ever listens.
So I'll keep my mouth shut,
And pray you change your condition.
I would feel sorry for you,
But I can't even feel sorry for me.
You're incapable of love.
You're incapable of anything.
