Castle

Sometimes all we need is a place to feel at ease.

~ Let it live forever in our memories. ~

Five in the morning.

I couldn't sleep last night,

But then I turn around to see your eyes.

I've been learning

How to leave my past behind,

But now only thoughts of you are in my mind.

Pure white sheets.

My ghosts are still haunting.

You place your arm safely around me.

I've been healing

From the ailments in my past.

You embrace me, making it all worth it at last.

Sun in the window.

I thought darkness was a way to live.

Finally, you're the ray of hope shining in.

I've been dreaming

For those fairytales to come true.

Finally, the person I've been dreaming of is you.

Our own castle.

This was worth the wait.

I finally found the place where I feel safe.

I've been searching

For a way out of my dissatisfaction.

Now I've found someone I never imagined.

Our own sanctuary.

Nothing can touch us

In here because it's built on love.

Now I'm happy.

I know that as I wake by your side.

You can't take your morning eyes off of mine.

In our own castle,

The rest of the world fades away.

There's nothing else we need but one more day.

Stale Thoughts and Tainted Minds

Things happen when you least expect them to. 

~ Stop thinking. ~

Stale thoughts, tainted minds. 

Memories renewed. 

Eyes wide, change of times. 

A new point of view. 

From where we start this,

How is this possible?

From all that has been,

How could this be?

Cotton tops, button up shirts.

A breath of fresh air.

Park benches, fireworks.

Stories we share.

Sweatshirts, pretty dresses.

On the fancy side.

Red napkins, gentle senses.

Smiles in our eyes.

My eyes gaze up,

Suddenly, I turn away.

Maybe this is luck.

Suddenly, I'm not afraid.

Lipstick, coffee cups.

Fancy four wheel rides.

First kiss, new trusts.

Feeling a different high.

Sweet words, gentle whispers.

A new way to listen.

Cold nights, warm blankets.

The past is forgiven.

This is very new.

I don't know what I'm doing.

This is very true.

I don't want it to end.

New thoughts, dirty glasses.

A tale of what's to be.

New dreams, jean jackets.

You are all I can see.

We've never felt this way before.

But I'm letting you in now

We've never wanted so much more,

But I want you now.

Hush.

Sometimes we have to be our own guardian angels. 

~ Sing me a lullaby. ~

Hush.

I promise I will always protect you.

I will do everything it takes.

I'm the one you can turn to.

I promise to scare all the monsters away.

Hush.

Did you have a nightmare?

Come, come and lay next to me.

I promise to always be there.

I promise the perfect role model I'll be.

Hush.

I can see you're crying now.

I'll wipe away the tear for you.

I swear I will never allow 

An unhappy day for you.

Hush.

Don't worry about my monsters.

I promised I'd keep you safe.

I promised you would never get hurt.

I'm here to keep all your monsters away.

Hush.

My monsters have taken over my mind,

But I still try to dry your tears.

You see me crying late at night.

I close the door and try to face my fears.

Hush.

This isn't a topic to be discussed. 

You're supposed to look up to me.

But I can't protect you because

Now I'm deep in my disease.

Hush.

I try to keep you out of the situation,

But you feel so much more alone.

I fall deeper into my frustration.

You take on something I'll never know.

Hush.

You watch me as I struggle in my war.

You take on a burden I'll never see.

Our roles switch like never before.

Now, you're the one protecting me.

Hush.

You take on so much.

You live it in your mind.

You were so young.

You step back this time.

Hush.

Then I think I've finally won, 

But I'll never really talk about it with you. 

You're still feeling numb. 

I think it'll protect you from my monsters too. 

Hush.

If I don't talk about it, it wasn't real. 

You bottle it up in your own way. 

If I don't talk about it, this isn't how you feel. 

You're just a kettle waiting to blow one day. 

Hush.

I'm sorry I left you in the dark. 

I'm sorry I engulfed you in my pain. 

I wanted to leave a protective mark.

Instead, I put so much strain.

Hush.

Please, don't say a word. 

Let me sing you to sleep,

Like the lullaby with the mockingbird.

You really saved me.

Hush.

Please, don't say a word.

Until you're safe in your dreams, it won't end,

Like the lullaby with the mockingbird.

I promise I will be the one to protect you again.

Hush.

Melt Your Memory

There comes a time when the only thing we can do is let go. 

~ Ease your mind. ~

We're diseased to be mortal. 

We're cursed to remember. 

There's no definition of normal. 

There's no such anecdote for the cure. 

There's scenes playing in our minds,

Taunting us from better days.

Reminding us of what we can't find.

Reminding us of what's taken away.

We're grasping onto the past now,

So tightly with our callus fists

That we're bleeding out cries,

With nails jammed into wrists.

All it takes is the notion of release,

Letting go of the pressure

In our fists causing the replay of scenes. 

Finally free, evil will be pure pleasure. 

If we forget the ability to think,

It'll just melt your memory away.

The scenes that have been links

To the past will no longer cause any pain.

There will no longer be a chain

Caging you with your demons.

No ties binding minds to the insane,

Lost in the ills of your own freedoms.

Easier said than played out

Because the mind is a funny thing.

To forget, we take purple pills now.

To forget, we become numb to the scenes.

We fall deeply into a dark sleep.

Deeper into our greatest fantasies.

We grasp onto the memories we keep.

We grasp onto thoughts of finding peace.