Sunglass Eyes

The eyes say all that's in your mind.

~ Put on your sunglasses. ~

Thick white sunglasses cover her green eyes.

You aren't who you say you are.

And she's wearing a whole other disguise,

Hidden far beneath that you'd never recognize.

Oh so lovely, her small talk on the surface.

You think she's hanging on your thread.

But she's got quite a different purpose,

A strategic plan calculated inside her head.

Of course, you think you're making all the moves.

You think she's playing the game you made.

But you're playing by all her rules,

Just another pawn with a name.

You stare deep into her sunglass eyes.

You think you've found your advantage.

But she knows she's your kryptonite,

More than you could ever manage.

You're hiding something down low.

You think it will help you win this game.

But she's got a bigger secret and she knows

All the moves you'll ever make.

Here at this table, now it all seems so sweet.

You almost believe all your lies.

But she can see through all your deceit,

That's why thick white sunglasses cover her green eyes.

Satisfaction

Nothing is ever as it seems, until you close your eyes.

~ Open your mind. ~

Sitting in a dark cold room this time again,

Living life like it’s gone off the 

edge.

Lonely minds make wandering eyes.

There’s only so long to play pretend.

The door is shut but it’s still o p e n,

Just look at light in another focus.

Tainted sighs make pretty lies.

They’re too naive to even notice.

Step it up now, won’t have too long,

But don’t ever believe it could be wrong,

Rule breakers make heart takers.

At least the loneliness is gone.

Don’t come too near in fear,

Someone may see it far too CLEAR.

Risk takers make love fakers.

As long as it looks sincere.

Go now and find another distraction,

But remember this forbidden attraction.

Nosey others break crossed lovers.
The day we finally found satisfaction.

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Ghosts

They come back at the strangest times. 

~ Please fade away. ~

There's always ghosts inside our heads.

They leave such taunting memories.

They haunt us most when we are in our beds,

Trying to find peace for once in our sleep.

They come back in flashes time to time.

We are never quite so prepared.

We think we're healed, but they plague our minds,

Mixing into the safety of our present beds.

The past is behind. "Leave it behind," we say. 

Are we ever fully done with a moment?

The ghosts always seem to find their ways

Back into our present sacred moments.

They bounce off the porcelain walls.

They leave echoes of traces within us.

You can't deny they've left a mark on all

The conscious life you are living.

They seep their ways back into our lives,

Like some disease we have been treating.

We think we had wiped clean our minds,

But they seep back into our every thought.

Everything is better now. Why do the ghosts still seep

Into our rooms at night when we're safely guarded?

Everything is better than it could ever be.

Why do they still taunt us in our peaceful sleep?

But they come in here and there, in full waves.

We become hindered by our inhibitions,

But they were the ghosts of yesterday,

Sometimes tempting us, wishing for a change. 

A single scene can make them come flying in.

But you just have to push them out.

The ghosts are figments of your imagination.

They're not real, only imaginary reminders of the past.

Imagination is nothing compared to reality.

The ghosts are trying to convince you otherwise -

To be back in the state of living in memories.

But you can see the future without them.

Echoes on porcelain walls are soon all they will ever be.

The ghosts will no longer have any meaning

To us, as we lay down for our peaceful sleep.

They are merely figments of distant memories.

Realms

We make our own paths. 

~ One day, today will meet yesterday. ~

She was traveling through different realms, 

Trying to find a place where she could reign. 

She decided it was time to crown herself,

To finally become the ruler of her own place.

Nothing before has really ever made sense 

In all the different realms she has travelled.

She's fought her way at her own expense,

Coming out finding even more battles.

But one day she will sit on her own throne. 

She will finally be the ruler of her own kind.

One day she make it out of this to atone

For all the ailments that had once ruled her mind.

There's a place somewhere where she can be 

All that she has ever wanted to.

This is a place for only privileged eyes to see.

A place where anyone can awake renewed.

Only the ones who have shared a mind like hers

Will ever be invited into her kingdom.

They've caught madness, but found the cure,

Still holding on to faded times that can't be undone.

She'll sit there on her gorgeous thrown.

Oh, what plans she has for a change.

She'll change the only life she's ever known.

She just has to find her realm some day. 

She's been searching so she can save you,

And all the you you will ever be.

One day your past will be forgiven and renewed.

She knows she just needs to find the sanctuary.

The steps she took brought you here over time,

Like she's been setting up a stage.

You've been walking on her path to find

That she was following you the whole way.   

Now you sit here looking down from her throne,

A solid crown firmly placed on your heads.

She looks up from the past you chose on you own.

Now you're changing the life she's lead.

Castle

Sometimes all we need is a place to feel at ease.

~ Let it live forever in our memories. ~

Five in the morning.

I couldn't sleep last night,

But then I turn around to see your eyes.

I've been learning

How to leave my past behind,

But now only thoughts of you are in my mind.

Pure white sheets.

My ghosts are still haunting.

You place your arm safely around me.

I've been healing

From the ailments in my past.

You embrace me, making it all worth it at last.

Sun in the window.

I thought darkness was a way to live.

Finally, you're the ray of hope shining in.

I've been dreaming

For those fairytales to come true.

Finally, the person I've been dreaming of is you.

Our own castle.

This was worth the wait.

I finally found the place where I feel safe.

I've been searching

For a way out of my dissatisfaction.

Now I've found someone I never imagined.

Our own sanctuary.

Nothing can touch us

In here because it's built on love.

Now I'm happy.

I know that as I wake by your side.

You can't take your morning eyes off of mine.

In our own castle,

The rest of the world fades away.

There's nothing else we need but one more day.

What You Wanted

Isn't this what you wanted?

~ It's never what you thought it would be. ~

I'm not really sure just happened. 

I can't speak about it because no one else is talking. 

What if I'm wrong? What if I it's what I wanted?

Then, why does it feel so lethal and so haunting?

I don't know what to think anymore. 

You were getting comfortable inside my mind. 

I listened with such obedience. 

I was swayed far too easily time and time. 

But is it what I really wanted?

No, I remember my voice grasping firmly on the word. 

As I sat there repeating it,

You were out for yourself without giving me any concern. 

I did this to myself, that's what you told me.

But I trusted you and you used that to your advantage. 

I thought I knew you and I trusted you. 

But you saw me as an opportunity to further your antics. 

I'm seeing flashes of those times. 

I didn't quite understand what happened then. 

Finally, I gave in and admitted to someone. 

And the meaning was brought to my attention. 

Well I guess you finally got what you wanted. 

Just another in your long list of conquests. 

Somehow I know I had it easier than them. 

So, why is my mind forever in a state of detest?

They tell me to get over it and move on. 

Why do the flashes in my mind still taunt me?

It's in the past, I try to tell myself. 

But when I think I'm happy, those times still haunt me. 

You're truly the master of deception. 

You think we're all pawns in your game. 

I'm glad I was strong enough to break free. 

The unstable thoughts in your mind are truly to blame. 

I would speak up,

But no one ever listens. 

So I'll keep my mouth shut,

And pray you change your condition.  

I would feel sorry for you,

But I can't even feel sorry for me. 

You're incapable of love. 

You're incapable of anything. 

Mind Games

Not everyone is good at following the rules.

~ I win. ~

I'm back in a game I was long ago,

Dazzled by hopes and dreams that glowed.

I played along but something did change.

Every twist and turn, boiled a rage.

I played along and it consumed me,

Played until what I have isn't what you need.

I started to take my pieces off the board,

But you made me play the game some more.

You raged as I tried to retaliate.

You held me back, and I began to saturate,

With mirroring images of all your pain.

Whispers filled me with your games.

You pull me in to another round.

I've played before, but I've learned how

To hold my own. You've learned too.

You've learned new tricks that are ready for use.

You try them out on me day by day.

I keep reading the rules of how to play

To figure out why you test what works.

Why you still play your way without concerns. 

I can feel the rage coming again.

I fill with your whispers, and then,

Just because things didn't go your way,

You play me like a child with your mind games.

I caught you like one of those diseases.

You made me like one of your pieces,

Something only to move in your favor,

But I never wanted to be one of the players.

You never paid attention to my wishes.

You shot down all of the competition.

But these games can't go on forever.

I see through to the truth of your endeavors.

Your cards are beginning to wear thin.

Your directions are ripping.

Your whispers are blurring out with time.

Your games are quickly gone from my mind.

Melt Your Memory

There comes a time when the only thing we can do is let go. 

~ Ease your mind. ~

We're diseased to be mortal. 

We're cursed to remember. 

There's no definition of normal. 

There's no such anecdote for the cure. 

There's scenes playing in our minds,

Taunting us from better days.

Reminding us of what we can't find.

Reminding us of what's taken away.

We're grasping onto the past now,

So tightly with our callus fists

That we're bleeding out cries,

With nails jammed into wrists.

All it takes is the notion of release,

Letting go of the pressure

In our fists causing the replay of scenes. 

Finally free, evil will be pure pleasure. 

If we forget the ability to think,

It'll just melt your memory away.

The scenes that have been links

To the past will no longer cause any pain.

There will no longer be a chain

Caging you with your demons.

No ties binding minds to the insane,

Lost in the ills of your own freedoms.

Easier said than played out

Because the mind is a funny thing.

To forget, we take purple pills now.

To forget, we become numb to the scenes.

We fall deeply into a dark sleep.

Deeper into our greatest fantasies.

We grasp onto the memories we keep.

We grasp onto thoughts of finding peace.