Leaving

I think everyone feels overlooked at one point by someone they thought cared.  It's hard to hold on to something that it barely there.  You have to just learn how to let go.

~ don't take things for granted ~


Remember standing in the mirror staring back at me?
You're questioning how I am still here.
I placed limits that you exceed.
Somehow I am still standing here.

You're always rooting for a loosing team,
That's not much to be proud of baby.
I think you take for granted my leniency,
So I've been thinking bout walking lately.

All I've been hearing is silence, so I'm making my own noise.
I get impatient from silence, and I can be impulsive boy.

All you want is my mini skirt, skin-tight tee shirt
Walking around in your room.
But you never give back, when I need you most,
You really don't have a clue.

I'm done with the waiting.
Baby, I can be so impatient.
I'm grabbing my things and I,
Am leaving.
Leaving.
Leaving.

Leading me down a never ending road.
You're too busy to even pick up a phone.
I come back but only get more to decode.
I'm just chasing old ghosts.

I don't like this silence, so I'm making my own noise.
I get impatient from silence, and I will be impulsive boy.

All you want is my mini skirt, skin-tight tee shirt
Walking around in your room.
But you never give back, when I need you most,
You really don't have a clue.

I'm done with the waiting.
Baby, I can be so impatient.
I'm grabbing my things and I,
Am leaving.
Leaving.
Leaving.

Get on your knees,
Show me how much you want me.
You gotta plead,
Show me how much you want me.
Packing my things,
Show me how much you want me.
Don't make me wait,
Show me how much you want me.
I'm ready to leave.
I'm ready to leave.
How much do you want me?

All you want is my mini skirt, skin-tight tee shirt
Walking around in your room.
But you never give back, when I need you most,
You really don't have a clue.

I'm done with the waiting.
Baby, I can be so impatient.
I'm grabbing my things and I,

I'm done with the waiting.
Baby, I can be so impatient.
I'm grabbing my things and I,
Am leaving.
Leaving.
Leaving.

Magic

I wrote these lyrics almost 4 years ago.  I was inspired by a magical TV show that aired at the time.  I decided to post it today in honor of the holiday.   

Note: I am OBSESSED with the lines "Crystals hanging from the ceiling/This is magic that we're feeling." 

~ Happy Halloween ~

See the spark inside of you.
This is what fate led us to.
Old destiny feels so new.

You can read my mind.
Open up, this is what we'll find.
You are one of my kind.

Bring us together and we'll make magic.
All you have to do is put your hand in mine
And then we will fly.

Our hands together, feel the static.
Together as one, we make magic.
See the glitter float around,
Know each other's thoughts, don't make a sound.
So much can happen between the two of us.
This is more than just lust.
It will never end tragic.
This is more than love. 
This is magic.

Earth, wind, fire and air.
Now I know that you care.
Fate says you'll always be there.

Bound together before birth.
Finding what we are worth.
As one, we can break the curse.

Bring us together and we'll make magic.
All you have to do is put your hand in mine
And then we will fly.

Our hands together, feel the static.
Together as one, we make magic.
See the glitter float around,
Know each other's thoughts, don't make a sound.
So much can happen between the two of us.
This is more than just lust.
It will never end tragic.
This is more than love. 

This is magic.

Sparkles illuminated on the wall,
In so deep ready for the fall.
Crystals hanging from the ceiling,
This is magic we are feeling.
Charmed, we are to each other.
Know we can never be with another.

Crystals hanging from the ceiling,
This is magic we are feeling.
Crystals hanging from the ceiling,
This is magic we are feeling.
This is magic we are feeling.

Our hands together, feel the static.
Together as one, we make magic.
See the glitter float around,
Know each other's thoughts, don't make a sound.
So much can happen between the two of us.
This is more than just lust.
It will never end tragic.
This is more than love. 

This is magic.

Crystals hanging from the ceiling,
This is magic we are feeling,
This is magic.

Breath In

I'm holding on, but the thread starts to break. 
Your promises fill the emptiness. When
I think the silence is as much as I can take,
I see your face and take the pain again. 

Breath in and maybe it'll change. Then I feel again.
Roses grow when you're so good to me.
I turn my back and only weeds I see.
A deafening noise of nothing seeps in.
You come back and I fall in, again and again.
Breath in, I've been so numb.
Breath out, I feel again.

I keep losing my grip, hanging off the edge,
Until I feel a pull bringing me to surface.
You'd don't know the evil thoughts in my head.
Though I let you in, I'm afraid to trust.
Breath in and maybe it'll change. Then I feel again.
Roses grow when you're so good to me.
I turn my back and only weeds I see.
A deafening noise of nothing seeps in.
You come back and I fall in, again and again.
Breath in, I've been so numb.
Breath out, I feel again.

I tell myself never again, but why does my heart skip beats?
And why am I so willing to give all of me?
Breath in and maybe it'll change. Then I feel again.
Roses grow when you're so good to me.
I turn my back and only weeds I see.
A deafening noise of nothing seeps in.
You come back and I fall in, again and again.
Breath in, I've been so numb.
Breath out, I feel again.

I like you like the air inside my lungs.
Time passes and I'm getting strung.
I say I need to get out,
Then I breath in,
Then I breath in,
Then I breath in.
Then I feel again. 

Back to Innocence

Life doesn't live in the movies, they tell us all these lies.
I've learned to accept disappointments through silent cries.
Then you came into my life and sucked the poison out.
You reminded me of what can be and hope can be found.

Now I'm back to innocence.
I was holding on a thread.
But I'm back to innocence
With hopes for dreams instead.
I waited long and I fought hard,
And got scars on my heart.
With you, I'm back to the start.
I'm back to innocence.

I hopelessly lost hope in the evil game of love.
I took a step into the darkness, accepting what I'd become.
You pulled me into brighter nights and those glittering days.
A light at the end of the tunnel, though you couldn't stay.

Now I'm back to innocence.
I was holding on a thread.
But I'm back to innocence
With hopes for dreams instead.
I waited long and I fought hard,
And got scars on my heart.
With you, I'm back to the start.
I'm back to innocence.

I'm not used to what you threw before us.
I've been broken and abused, losing all trust.
One after another I expected they all want the same.
You were that one small change, bringing me back
To believe in innocence.

Now I'm back to innocence.
I was holding on a thread.
But I'm back to innocence
With hopes for dreams instead.
I waited long and I fought hard,
And got scars on my heart.
With you, I'm back to the start.
I'm back to innocence.

Now I know innocence.
I'm back to innocence.
Thank you for innocence.

Substance Abuse

I've been counting down the weeks till you come back,
Slipping into ways of my lethal past.
It's cyanide I'm sipping in my crystal glass,
Fumes for oxygen in my lungs till you come back.

Keep me warm, hold me tight,
Be the substance to get me through the night.
Be my sin, be my love,
All I need to fall asleep is for you as my drug.
Give me love, give me love
Be my drug, be my drug.

Time is ticking and I'm slipping farther into you,
Even though distance pains in truth.
It's Valium I'm mixing into liquid courage drinks.
Clouds for clear vision when I begin to think.

Keep me warm, hold me tight,
Be the substance to get me through the night.
Be my sin, be my love,
All I need to fall asleep is for you as my drug.
Give me love, give me love
Be my drug, be my drug.

You're so far away and he's so close,
You must understand it.
For now I just need him as a distraction,
You must understand it.
He's like the sugar,
When I'm addicted to something else .
He's my distraction,
When I'm addicted to you.

Keep me warm, hold me tight,
Be the substance to get me through the night.
Be my sin, be my love,
All I need to fall asleep is for you as my drug.
Give me love, give me love
Be my drug, be my drug,
Give me substance, be my substance.

Glimmered Memories

Watch a better quality version of the video on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SqA3o9SPVqk&list=UU-FY-tyNWVRqYeUq7d-xJiw

Lyrics, editing, directing and voice over: Jen

Starring: Megan

Film clips shot by Rae and Jen

Gimmered Memories

We are all drenched in each other’s raindrops,

Sitting so high and mighty on top.

They have fallen with such a soft sound,

But we’re faded, pitiful and broken now.

Our tears will wash over the sands of the beach,

While we think of glimmered memories, so out of reach.

We are one.  Now aligned with the ash-gray sky,

Far away from the land and powered light

That would lead us back home to be angels.

Damned to serious ailments, it is our fate though.

We’ll dance alone, creating our own afflictions.

This clumsy life has become our addictions.

We’re all just charitable souls

Willing to give to the first case we know.

It would be nice if we had sterile hearts,

But we just have too many scars.

Our sores may sprout sunflowers one day.

And lunar dust will heal all our pain.

Who are we kidding? We will only collapse.

We will never have a natural life back.

It is just our supernatural virtue

Decided before birth.  No dignity to ensue.

Our hopes and dreams, merely iridescent silk,

Too rich and beautiful for us to get a taste of its milk

Because we eat temptation like a perfect pastry,

And we’re not tangible, only imaginary.

Manipulation

You're keeping it locked on your lips,

And you're thinking nobody knows it.

The only safety is distance,

So you're pushing them, pushing them.

They hang onto every word you say,

But there's not one truth you make.

You're the master of these games,

And you're playing them, playing them.

They don't know that you're hanging by a thread.

Treading the water, but drowning instead.

Secrets and lies waking up from your bed.

Now you're walking on airs without a care out in the public eye,

But you used and abused the ones who saved you, when the darkest hour was near behind .

With just a snap of your finger, your servants linger eager in manipulation,

But I'm learning how with what I know now not to give into your instigation.

You burned me and broke me before my eyes but I know now.

It's really not intelligent

How you're burning so many bridges.

A lover who merely quits

Is not for sale, not for sale.

I'm standing with a loaded hand,

And you just pulled the trigger.

You don't have long to stand

Cause you're gonna fall, gonna fall.

You  don't know that you're hanging by a thread.

Treading the water, but drowning instead.

Secrets and lies waking up from your bed.

Now you're walking on airs without a care out in the public eye,

But you used and abused the ones who saved you, when the darkest hour was near behind .

With just a snap of your finger, your servants linger eager in manipulation,

But I'm learning how with what I know now not to give into your instigation.

You burned me and broke me before my eyes but I know now.

I have a little secret:

I know, I know what you did.

I know, I know what you did.

You burned and broke me down,

But I stand stronger now.

Cause I know, I know what you did.

I know, I know what you did.

I know, I know what you did.

And I like the taste of revenge.

Now you're walking on airs without a care out in the public eye,

But you used and abused the ones who saved you, when the darkest hour was near behind .

With just a snap of your finger, your servants linger eager in manipulation,

But I'm learning how with what I know now not to give into your instigation.

You burned me and broke me before my eyes but

I like the taste of revenge