Sweet, Sweet Dreaming

Dreams can be bittersweet sometimes, especially when they dare to remind.

~ Live forever in fantasy. ~ 

Sweet, sweet kisses you're giving.
Lay, lay down for the evening.
Quick, quick to keep dreaming. 
Lay, lay down for the evening.

In my dreams, I'm seeing past things,
Gone away now, but still taunting me.
Over doesn't feel very complete
When all you want is only for sleep.

I grasp a hand and it feels so real,
Bringing back what I had refused to feel.
After all time has taken to try to mend,
But a mirage had the ability to bend . 

Sweet, sweet kisses you're giving.
Lay, lay down for the evening.
Quick, quick to keep dreaming. 
Lay, lay down for the evening.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Come, come inside my head.
Stay, stay forever in pretend.
Come, come inside my head.

I think I'd like to live in this fantasy
Because then you'd be real for me.
I'll wear the pretty gowns I used to.
Just promise to keep me like you'd do.

Sweet, sweet kisses you're giving.
Lay, lay down for the evening.
Quick, quick to keep dreaming. 
Lay, lay down for the evening.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Come, come inside my head.
Stay, stay forever in pretend.
Come, come inside my head.

Oh, sweet memory,
You mustn't be a figment of imagination.
Oh, haunted dreams,
You're not a mere product of my sedation.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Quick, quick before I wake again.

Sweet, sweet kisses you're giving.
Lay, lay down for the evening.
Quick, quick to keep dreaming. 
Lay, lay down for the evening.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Come, come inside my head.
Stay, stay forever in pretend.
Come, come inside my head.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Come, come inside my head.
Stay, stay forever in pretend.
Come, come inside my head.

Come inside my head.

Balloons

Balloons are so tedious.  If their strings aren't grounded the tightly to something or someone, they could float away forever.

~ Ground me down. ~

I'm holding air in like a helium balloon.

A perfect party accent flying out of the room,

Running overdrive on thoughts in my mind,

Until the point I'm lost way up in the sky.

I'm floating far above all the rest,

With every bump a different test.

Helium projects me farther away from what I face.

My mind is ticking, pretense of a different place. 

Maybe I'll float above all I want to erase.

I'm on lock down with about as much I can take.

So, I'll let myself fly away into the air

Because I've lost all sense of knowing to care.

I'm flying so high now,

Blurring out all the ants on the ground.

I've lost control and direction, 

But I'll float until I reach true perfection.

Now I'm stuck so far up in my mind.

I always say, "I'll come down some time."

But time and time come, and I fear the worst. 

It's so much easier when you're dealing out the hurt.

I think I'm waiting for someone.

Someone who knows when to come,

At a time like this when I'm in need,

Right as I forget to breath.

What I need is to get safely back to the ground.

What I need is for it to be all over now.

But air in my helium balloon keeps pulling me up.

So just grab my hand and whisper, "It'll be okay, love."

Scenes

There's no way of knowing how an event will unfold or how you will embrace it when it comes.

~ I think I'm ready now. ~

Scenes replay in my mind,

But you're already in a different movie.

You breath in new thoughts.

I can read them before they hit me.

And then they hit me.

I feel a rush of air, a sickening feeling.

Oxygen leaves me stranded.

I loose control, and I'm reeling. 

Stealing all I've known,

Mocking me with all I've seen,

I am pouring out.

But, inside, replay of taunting scenes.

I feel something reach

For me in attempt to calm it down.

I struggle away

Because I know it isn't mine now.

There's sounds somewhere. 

I can't look. I won't turn around.

With every word,

I detach. It can't be mine now. 

I feel more weight 

That had once been lifted off of me.

Suddenly, all my dreams

Come crashing into a twisted reality.

Sickening intensifies 

As you say you've rationalized it.

I don't believe you.

Oh, how you've tried to hide it.

The scenes are ghosts.

They were once bright foundations.

They're creeping around

At night. Now I need sedation.

I hear more words.

They shake me like an earthquake.

Darkness is tempting,

But the scenes still resonate.

Both sides feel it.

They're pushed to the ground.

I don't understand how

One can fall in while another falls out. 

You can write speeches.

You can prepare for the worst,

But the scenes always replay.

So, you can never prepare for how much it hurts. 

Icon

I wrote this as a lyrical poem almost 2 years ago.  I was intrigued by the glamour and pose of two iconic women - what they had done and how they lived their lives.  I was in awe how two very different people could be rumored to have one great connection.

~ Nothing lasts forever. ~


Pearls, pearls. Hanging from the front near your collar bone. 
Poised, posed. Smiling for a picture on your husband's arm. 
Flash, flash. It's a Camelot setting in this pretty picture.
The American dream could never do no harm.

You got families full of money and you married your kind.
Stand by your husband, honey, cause you're on TV.
You're a style icon and you like the attention.
But your life's all wrong cause John's sleepin' with Marilyn.

Hey, hey, you're playing their game,
Put a smile on, put a smile on.
Hey, hey, it makes you insane.
Are you a lover or a wife?
Does fantasy entice you?
You're a figment of his imagination
The product of American creation. 
Do you choose to stay loyal or to sin?
Are you a Jackie O or a Marilyn?

Jewels, jewels. Hidden in places they'll never find.
Play, pay. For all all the ways you've come to fame.
Flash, flash. You're sensual symbol in public eye.
The American image will live in your name.

You've got bottles full of pills and you're clutching the phone.
Stand on your own cause they'll make a fool outta you.
You're a pop icon and you like the attention,
But your life's all wrong cause he lives with Jackie O.
Hey, hey, you're playing their game,
Put a smile on, put a smile on.
Hey, hey, it makes you insane.
Are you a lover or a wife?
Does fantasy entice you?
You're a figment of his imagination
The product of American creation. 
Do you choose to stay loyal or to sin?
Are you a Jackie O or a Marilyn?

From the BMWs to Cadillacs and limousines. 
Singing to the soldiers, sipping tea with the queen. 
You're living the high life in your own right of America's prime.

You've got everything now - the sequence, the image,
But sealed between your lips are thoughts only for your pleasure.
It's immortality, darling, and you'll be living forever. 

Hey, hey, you're playing their game,
Put a smile on, put a smile on.
Hey, hey, it makes you insane.
Are you a lover or a wife?
Does fantasy entice you?
You're a figment of his imagination
The product of American creation. 
Do you choose to stay loyal or to sin?
Are you a Jackie O or a Marilyn?

Uncovered Wrists

There's something hidden deep down.

~ Uncover. ~


The secrets you keep,
          A cause my lack of sleep.
                                                               I feel coldness slip
                         Up from my uncovered wrists.
I'm standing on the
           edge.
        You like me hanging on
                    thread.
I feel you s l i p p i n g into my mind.
                                                                      Are these thoughts really mine?
                                     I wear elegant gowns
To mask scars where I hit ground.
     Crown s h a t t e rs once again,
But there's never an end.
                                            I suck air into my lungs,
                                                                 Tasting poison in your tongue.
I drink it all uP,
Clutching lies           from the cup.
You make me lOOk
                                   down
                               From the edge. A reminder I'll drown.
I stumble          back. Youpushmecloser.
                  My wrists grow colder.
There's static in my ears,
A thinning ledge holding me here.
I look uP to gray clouds.
                             You push me
down.





You push me down.







And I breath.
I breath.

The secrets we keep, 

      Cause our lack of sleep. 

                      We're s l i p p i n g into our mind. 

Your thoughts are mine. 

Echoes

We're forever chasing echoes from yesterday. 

~ We're aching. ~

I've been chasing echoes that bounce off porcelain walls.

I hear them through the marble caverns, taunting my withdrawal

From all that I have vowed to store deep away.

They're bringing out the voices that lead me to stray.

I say that I won't let them have power over me,

But they echo with such a false, tempting security.

Because I like to chase that sparkling glimmer of hope,

But they're just getting ready to tie my rope.

I think I can hear them louder and clearer now.

Maybe I'll finally reach the dreams that were drowned

Once before by unfortunate chains of events

That condemned me to desire all the echoes prevent.

It will be like before, and we'll repeat the past,

Exactly how it was the first time, making it last.

The echoes are nearing and I know they'll be true,

And finally allow me out of this maze I've construed.

I'm just falling deeper into this thick labyrinth.

The echoes sing sweet tunes until I'm convinced.

I've come to terms with how the end will be.

So, I'm chasing echoes as echoes just consume me.

No Words

The best feelings are the ones in which there are absolutely no words for.

 ~ You just know. ~

You've got me feeling like I'm in a haze,
At a loss for words of how to say,
So many things going round in my head,
But I've gotten lost in the words unsaid.
I've never felt like this before.

I look up to catch you looking at me.
And I feel the gaze even as mine leaves.
My face reddens and I feel like a kid,
Certain of something, but afraid to admit.
I've never given up this much power.

I turn around afraid to hold your gaze
Because I know you'll make me smile.
You know how much I hate to give in,
But you'll make it worth my while.

I don't know what it is.
I can't even grasp it.
There are no words.
This has never happened.

Your fingers are the missing piece
Of a puzzle creating the whole of me.
Time and time, we intertwine so easily.
That's why we can never really leave.
I've never given up this much freedom.

I look up to that look on your face.
I know what you're thinking.
I turn around afraid to hold your gaze,
I still feel like I'm dreaming.

I don't know what it is.
I can't even grasp it.
There are no words.
This has never happened.

I'm at a loss for words, and I can't describe this.
I'm at a loss for words, but the feeling is timeless.
I can feel it in the air, but I don't know what to say.
You feel it in the air, enough to know it's the same.
I'm at a loss for words for the first time.

I don't know what it is.
I can't even grasp it.
There are no words.
This has never happened.

I'm at a loss for words, and I can't describe this.
I'm at a loss for words, but the feeling is timeless.
The feeling is timeless.