Sweet, Sweet Dreaming

Dreams can be bittersweet sometimes, especially when they dare to remind.

~ Live forever in fantasy. ~ 

Sweet, sweet kisses you're giving.
Lay, lay down for the evening.
Quick, quick to keep dreaming. 
Lay, lay down for the evening.

In my dreams, I'm seeing past things,
Gone away now, but still taunting me.
Over doesn't feel very complete
When all you want is only for sleep.

I grasp a hand and it feels so real,
Bringing back what I had refused to feel.
After all time has taken to try to mend,
But a mirage had the ability to bend . 

Sweet, sweet kisses you're giving.
Lay, lay down for the evening.
Quick, quick to keep dreaming. 
Lay, lay down for the evening.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Come, come inside my head.
Stay, stay forever in pretend.
Come, come inside my head.

I think I'd like to live in this fantasy
Because then you'd be real for me.
I'll wear the pretty gowns I used to.
Just promise to keep me like you'd do.

Sweet, sweet kisses you're giving.
Lay, lay down for the evening.
Quick, quick to keep dreaming. 
Lay, lay down for the evening.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Come, come inside my head.
Stay, stay forever in pretend.
Come, come inside my head.

Oh, sweet memory,
You mustn't be a figment of imagination.
Oh, haunted dreams,
You're not a mere product of my sedation.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Quick, quick before I wake again.

Sweet, sweet kisses you're giving.
Lay, lay down for the evening.
Quick, quick to keep dreaming. 
Lay, lay down for the evening.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Come, come inside my head.
Stay, stay forever in pretend.
Come, come inside my head.

Quick, quick before I wake again.
Come, come inside my head.
Stay, stay forever in pretend.
Come, come inside my head.

Come inside my head.

Balloons

Balloons are so tedious.  If their strings aren't grounded the tightly to something or someone, they could float away forever.

~ Ground me down. ~

I'm holding air in like a helium balloon.

A perfect party accent flying out of the room,

Running overdrive on thoughts in my mind,

Until the point I'm lost way up in the sky.

I'm floating far above all the rest,

With every bump a different test.

Helium projects me farther away from what I face.

My mind is ticking, pretense of a different place. 

Maybe I'll float above all I want to erase.

I'm on lock down with about as much I can take.

So, I'll let myself fly away into the air

Because I've lost all sense of knowing to care.

I'm flying so high now,

Blurring out all the ants on the ground.

I've lost control and direction, 

But I'll float until I reach true perfection.

Now I'm stuck so far up in my mind.

I always say, "I'll come down some time."

But time and time come, and I fear the worst. 

It's so much easier when you're dealing out the hurt.

I think I'm waiting for someone.

Someone who knows when to come,

At a time like this when I'm in need,

Right as I forget to breath.

What I need is to get safely back to the ground.

What I need is for it to be all over now.

But air in my helium balloon keeps pulling me up.

So just grab my hand and whisper, "It'll be okay, love."

Scenes

There's no way of knowing how an event will unfold or how you will embrace it when it comes.

~ I think I'm ready now. ~

Scenes replay in my mind,

But you're already in a different movie.

You breath in new thoughts.

I can read them before they hit me.

And then they hit me.

I feel a rush of air, a sickening feeling.

Oxygen leaves me stranded.

I loose control, and I'm reeling. 

Stealing all I've known,

Mocking me with all I've seen,

I am pouring out.

But, inside, replay of taunting scenes.

I feel something reach

For me in attempt to calm it down.

I struggle away

Because I know it isn't mine now.

There's sounds somewhere. 

I can't look. I won't turn around.

With every word,

I detach. It can't be mine now. 

I feel more weight 

That had once been lifted off of me.

Suddenly, all my dreams

Come crashing into a twisted reality.

Sickening intensifies 

As you say you've rationalized it.

I don't believe you.

Oh, how you've tried to hide it.

The scenes are ghosts.

They were once bright foundations.

They're creeping around

At night. Now I need sedation.

I hear more words.

They shake me like an earthquake.

Darkness is tempting,

But the scenes still resonate.

Both sides feel it.

They're pushed to the ground.

I don't understand how

One can fall in while another falls out. 

You can write speeches.

You can prepare for the worst,

But the scenes always replay.

So, you can never prepare for how much it hurts.