Nightmares

Sometimes it's easier living in the world we create for ourselves.

~ Go back to sleep. ~

I'm seeing figments of reality in front of my eyes.

I'm waking up but only living the thoughts in my mind.

I'll sleep walk past all of the events playing out,

Living a life I've become a slave to by now. 

It's just so easy to fall back into these ways. 

It's a craving that comes every year on these days.

It's so tempting to fall back into that sleep, 

But I know I should wake before I get in too deep. 

It's like a nightmare, but I want to see the end. 

It's like a nightmare reoccurring time and time again. 

It's like a nightmare where it's so addicting to be. 

It's like a nightmare, but the end I'll never see. 

I'm accustomed to living in my beautiful disaster. 

I'm happy in this dark world I'm chasing after. 

Even though I can never fully wake from this dream,

I think I'm in control of what's becoming of me. 

It's taking over me like a deep, dark sleep. 

I'm drawn in to tantalizing words I hear speak. 

Being awake seems like a curse we must face. 

So I decide, inside my mind is where I want to stay.  

It's like a nightmare, but I want to see the end. 

It's like a nightmare reoccurring time and time again. 

It's like a nightmare where it's so addicting to be. 

It's like a nightmare, but the end I'll never see. 

This is beautiful. It's where I want to be. 

It's so easy here. It's not reality. 

Even if I'm alive, I'm never fully awake. 

I'd rather face my nightmares, even in the day. 

I've been feeling tired for a very long time now. 

I've been spending awhile with the thoughts in my mind now. 

It's easier in the nightmares where I'm in control definitely. 

Please don't make me go back to reality. 

Earthquake

It's not easy to say all the words in your mind.

~Take the leap.~ 

I can feel it, like an earthquake. 

It's so unpredictable and new. 

But I'm afraid I'll break,

If you know I feel it too. 

I can hear it like thunder in my mind. 

It's so pronounced and loud. 

But it's so hard to find

Just when to open my mouth. 

I've been holding back my tongue. 

I think it's time to tell. 

But then I grow numb.

Do you still feel it as well?

I've been so close to spilling,

Like a broken bottle to the floor. 

Every time I think I'm willing,

I bite my tongue some more. 

Is there a subtle way

To divulge my proclamation?

What would you say?

I think it'd help the conversation. 

But don't I already know? 

I've seen it between the lines. 

And I think you already know. 

All that's left is to speak my mind. 

I can feel it like pouring rain,

Washing all my troubles clean. 

But I am still afraid

For after I decide to take the leap. 

I can feel it like an earthquake.

It's so beautiful and new. 

You've had a long wait. 

Now, you need to hear it too.

Moral Codes

Blood is thicker than water.

~Don't get in between.~ 

They're pictures of perfection, precisely poised.  

They're sweet, but there's great power in their ploys. 

Ball gowns glisten and green eyes tantalize.

If double crossed, awakened is their dark side. 

They can see right through your big brown eyes. 

Your words don't match what's in your mind. 

You're seething pretty phrases through pearly teeth.

They'll nod for now but know exactly what you mean. 

They're one step ahead in the maze you create. 

While you think they're the ones taking all the bait,

They're setting down carefully their own plans in place.

You don't know they're really in control of the game. 

They're strategic, pretending to play fair and nice. 

They follow your move, playing into what you like. 

They'll take notes of strength and weakness,

Carefully keeping track all of your secrets. 

When the time comes they'll spill them like a storm

When the time comes, remember you've been warned.

If you try to get in between them, hell will break loose.

All it will do is tighten your noose.

You can take a shot, but just remember they're each a pistol. 

You can take your aim, but you're already in the middle. 

Before you continue, there is one more thing you must know.

They live by these simple moral codes:

Vengeance, glamour, poise, beauty.
Poison, destruction, chaos, cruelty.

Vengeance, glamour, poise, beauty.
Poison, destruction, chaos, cruelty.

Vengeance, glamour, poise, beauty.
Poison, destruction, chaos, cruelty.

Messages

Actions are often louder messages than those that are spoken.

~ Don't Speak.~

I've been thinking about you a lot, but all I've seen of you are words,

Written for my eyes to analyze.

More and more I grow founder, until finally your voice is heard. 

There's a sweeter accent to it. 

This is different than what I'm used to and my past begins to blur. 

It's unseasonably warm out, it matches my change of fate,

A harsh winter finally blossoming. 

As I walk towards the picture come to life, I begin to shake. 

The colors begin to form reality. 

Now we're eye to eye, already a smile painted on your face. 

It's been a long while, but this is what we've been waiting for. 

We've been counting calendar days. 

You seem surreal, like a Prince Charming come to my door. 

I'm used to the paupers. 

You talk. Unknowingly, effortlessly intriguing me more and more.  

Only the first few days, I've already become addicted. 

Is this a high or is it real? 

I take a step back, to save myself from becoming inflicted, 

A routine I've seen in my past. 

But maybe it's a fate that I couldn't have predicted. 

Suddenly, I feel myself slipping into a beautiful dream.

My world becomes a fairytale story.

When I open my eyes, everything is what it seems.

No monsters hiding behind pretty faces.

This is what I've been waiting for, and the future gleams.

Now there are anchors. More than just words decoded in a message,

More than just fancy phrases.

There's something in your actions that leaves much impression.

They say what the words don't.

We don't need words anymore because it's true perfection.