Ghosts

They come back at the strangest times. 

~ Please fade away. ~

There's always ghosts inside our heads.

They leave such taunting memories.

They haunt us most when we are in our beds,

Trying to find peace for once in our sleep.

They come back in flashes time to time.

We are never quite so prepared.

We think we're healed, but they plague our minds,

Mixing into the safety of our present beds.

The past is behind. "Leave it behind," we say. 

Are we ever fully done with a moment?

The ghosts always seem to find their ways

Back into our present sacred moments.

They bounce off the porcelain walls.

They leave echoes of traces within us.

You can't deny they've left a mark on all

The conscious life you are living.

They seep their ways back into our lives,

Like some disease we have been treating.

We think we had wiped clean our minds,

But they seep back into our every thought.

Everything is better now. Why do the ghosts still seep

Into our rooms at night when we're safely guarded?

Everything is better than it could ever be.

Why do they still taunt us in our peaceful sleep?

But they come in here and there, in full waves.

We become hindered by our inhibitions,

But they were the ghosts of yesterday,

Sometimes tempting us, wishing for a change. 

A single scene can make them come flying in.

But you just have to push them out.

The ghosts are figments of your imagination.

They're not real, only imaginary reminders of the past.

Imagination is nothing compared to reality.

The ghosts are trying to convince you otherwise -

To be back in the state of living in memories.

But you can see the future without them.

Echoes on porcelain walls are soon all they will ever be.

The ghosts will no longer have any meaning

To us, as we lay down for our peaceful sleep.

They are merely figments of distant memories.

Realms

We make our own paths. 

~ One day, today will meet yesterday. ~

She was traveling through different realms, 

Trying to find a place where she could reign. 

She decided it was time to crown herself,

To finally become the ruler of her own place.

Nothing before has really ever made sense 

In all the different realms she has travelled.

She's fought her way at her own expense,

Coming out finding even more battles.

But one day she will sit on her own throne. 

She will finally be the ruler of her own kind.

One day she make it out of this to atone

For all the ailments that had once ruled her mind.

There's a place somewhere where she can be 

All that she has ever wanted to.

This is a place for only privileged eyes to see.

A place where anyone can awake renewed.

Only the ones who have shared a mind like hers

Will ever be invited into her kingdom.

They've caught madness, but found the cure,

Still holding on to faded times that can't be undone.

She'll sit there on her gorgeous thrown.

Oh, what plans she has for a change.

She'll change the only life she's ever known.

She just has to find her realm some day. 

She's been searching so she can save you,

And all the you you will ever be.

One day your past will be forgiven and renewed.

She knows she just needs to find the sanctuary.

The steps she took brought you here over time,

Like she's been setting up a stage.

You've been walking on her path to find

That she was following you the whole way.   

Now you sit here looking down from her throne,

A solid crown firmly placed on your heads.

She looks up from the past you chose on you own.

Now you're changing the life she's lead.

Castle

Sometimes all we need is a place to feel at ease.

~ Let it live forever in our memories. ~

Five in the morning.

I couldn't sleep last night,

But then I turn around to see your eyes.

I've been learning

How to leave my past behind,

But now only thoughts of you are in my mind.

Pure white sheets.

My ghosts are still haunting.

You place your arm safely around me.

I've been healing

From the ailments in my past.

You embrace me, making it all worth it at last.

Sun in the window.

I thought darkness was a way to live.

Finally, you're the ray of hope shining in.

I've been dreaming

For those fairytales to come true.

Finally, the person I've been dreaming of is you.

Our own castle.

This was worth the wait.

I finally found the place where I feel safe.

I've been searching

For a way out of my dissatisfaction.

Now I've found someone I never imagined.

Our own sanctuary.

Nothing can touch us

In here because it's built on love.

Now I'm happy.

I know that as I wake by your side.

You can't take your morning eyes off of mine.

In our own castle,

The rest of the world fades away.

There's nothing else we need but one more day.

Stale Thoughts and Tainted Minds

Things happen when you least expect them to. 

~ Stop thinking. ~

Stale thoughts, tainted minds. 

Memories renewed. 

Eyes wide, change of times. 

A new point of view. 

From where we start this,

How is this possible?

From all that has been,

How could this be?

Cotton tops, button up shirts.

A breath of fresh air.

Park benches, fireworks.

Stories we share.

Sweatshirts, pretty dresses.

On the fancy side.

Red napkins, gentle senses.

Smiles in our eyes.

My eyes gaze up,

Suddenly, I turn away.

Maybe this is luck.

Suddenly, I'm not afraid.

Lipstick, coffee cups.

Fancy four wheel rides.

First kiss, new trusts.

Feeling a different high.

Sweet words, gentle whispers.

A new way to listen.

Cold nights, warm blankets.

The past is forgiven.

This is very new.

I don't know what I'm doing.

This is very true.

I don't want it to end.

New thoughts, dirty glasses.

A tale of what's to be.

New dreams, jean jackets.

You are all I can see.

We've never felt this way before.

But I'm letting you in now

We've never wanted so much more,

But I want you now.

Pull

Open the door to what could be. 

~ Give in the the pull.~

This isn't what I had expected. 

I never thought I'd be this tempted,

but there you stand across the room,

and I already feel a pull to you.

You're beautiful and so magnetic,

The chemistry is so energetic.

I have never felt this way.

I'm just hoping that you'll stay.

All the other people begin to blur.

All I see is one single fleur

de lis that matches mine.

You're the one I needed to find.

I don't know how I let you in so easily.

All the others fought, as I stayed free,

but I give in in no time this time.

You already have a hold of my mind.

When I finally reach you, you don't leave.

I hope you'll stay around to see what's underneath.

Just look at how many times you've restored my faith

in something I thought only for a magical place.

You've made me believe magic is real.

I know it's real in everything we feel.

It's not just a tale for old souls to say.

Now it's our story we live each day.

You're beautiful and so tempting.

This was never what I was expecting,

but the stories they tell are true.

I have found my prince in you.

I couldn't have predicted this. 

You're the answer to my every wish. 

I  follow the temptingly magnetic pull to you. 

I walk to you from across the room. 

Hush.

Sometimes we have to be our own guardian angels. 

~ Sing me a lullaby. ~

Hush.

I promise I will always protect you.

I will do everything it takes.

I'm the one you can turn to.

I promise to scare all the monsters away.

Hush.

Did you have a nightmare?

Come, come and lay next to me.

I promise to always be there.

I promise the perfect role model I'll be.

Hush.

I can see you're crying now.

I'll wipe away the tear for you.

I swear I will never allow 

An unhappy day for you.

Hush.

Don't worry about my monsters.

I promised I'd keep you safe.

I promised you would never get hurt.

I'm here to keep all your monsters away.

Hush.

My monsters have taken over my mind,

But I still try to dry your tears.

You see me crying late at night.

I close the door and try to face my fears.

Hush.

This isn't a topic to be discussed. 

You're supposed to look up to me.

But I can't protect you because

Now I'm deep in my disease.

Hush.

I try to keep you out of the situation,

But you feel so much more alone.

I fall deeper into my frustration.

You take on something I'll never know.

Hush.

You watch me as I struggle in my war.

You take on a burden I'll never see.

Our roles switch like never before.

Now, you're the one protecting me.

Hush.

You take on so much.

You live it in your mind.

You were so young.

You step back this time.

Hush.

Then I think I've finally won, 

But I'll never really talk about it with you. 

You're still feeling numb. 

I think it'll protect you from my monsters too. 

Hush.

If I don't talk about it, it wasn't real. 

You bottle it up in your own way. 

If I don't talk about it, this isn't how you feel. 

You're just a kettle waiting to blow one day. 

Hush.

I'm sorry I left you in the dark. 

I'm sorry I engulfed you in my pain. 

I wanted to leave a protective mark.

Instead, I put so much strain.

Hush.

Please, don't say a word. 

Let me sing you to sleep,

Like the lullaby with the mockingbird.

You really saved me.

Hush.

Please, don't say a word.

Until you're safe in your dreams, it won't end,

Like the lullaby with the mockingbird.

I promise I will be the one to protect you again.

Hush.

What You Wanted

Isn't this what you wanted?

~ It's never what you thought it would be. ~

I'm not really sure just happened. 

I can't speak about it because no one else is talking. 

What if I'm wrong? What if I it's what I wanted?

Then, why does it feel so lethal and so haunting?

I don't know what to think anymore. 

You were getting comfortable inside my mind. 

I listened with such obedience. 

I was swayed far too easily time and time. 

But is it what I really wanted?

No, I remember my voice grasping firmly on the word. 

As I sat there repeating it,

You were out for yourself without giving me any concern. 

I did this to myself, that's what you told me.

But I trusted you and you used that to your advantage. 

I thought I knew you and I trusted you. 

But you saw me as an opportunity to further your antics. 

I'm seeing flashes of those times. 

I didn't quite understand what happened then. 

Finally, I gave in and admitted to someone. 

And the meaning was brought to my attention. 

Well I guess you finally got what you wanted. 

Just another in your long list of conquests. 

Somehow I know I had it easier than them. 

So, why is my mind forever in a state of detest?

They tell me to get over it and move on. 

Why do the flashes in my mind still taunt me?

It's in the past, I try to tell myself. 

But when I think I'm happy, those times still haunt me. 

You're truly the master of deception. 

You think we're all pawns in your game. 

I'm glad I was strong enough to break free. 

The unstable thoughts in your mind are truly to blame. 

I would speak up,

But no one ever listens. 

So I'll keep my mouth shut,

And pray you change your condition.  

I would feel sorry for you,

But I can't even feel sorry for me. 

You're incapable of love. 

You're incapable of anything.